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Posts: 12/213 EXP: 182723 Next: 2640 Since: 11-02-14 From: Earth Last post: 3160 days Last view: 3086 days |
Hey... i'm new stumbled across the officer club and people seem very supportive and i wanted to know if i'm being crazy or not here, and since i'm new it's only logical that i get a neutral opinion on this. -I will summarize if TL/DR-
Well i guess what i need to get across is that i am incredibly scared that i am hated by people who i think i am close to. But this isn't something that is irrational i don't immediately think people hate me... sometimes either way in some context i think i read body language wrong but there have been multiple counts of people being nice to my face and then hating me behind my back, here's a few examples... Ex 1; Someone who was in conversations with me apparently always thought i was a "prick" and said that to everyone when i wasn't around (i found this out from a friend now we left school), apparently he didn't like me because i wasn't able to deal with social situations... i'm autistic so you can see how much i was offended by this... Ex 2; I moderated on this server and i wasn't that good as i teleported around a lot and some people were annoyed, however i did ask on multiple occasions if i had offended anyone severely and how i could improve, they said i was okay and that i couldn't improve. The server shut down and i find out that 5 people hated me and were filing a case to get me kicked out... Ex 3; Due to a misunderstanding with relationships and girls 1 of my friends secretly hated me. however continued to talk to me and decided to tell me this when i was under a lot of pressure and having bad day so it didn't go well... Ex 4; Now this one... this one... I would like to keep extremely serious as I personally believe part of me is scarred by this... right, during school there was a girl who was a decent person she was funny she talked to me i listened we were okay... then one day she stopped talking and always walked away from me, after a while i asked her friend to check why she was doing that and apparently i "touched her up" and i swear on my life i didn't but out of fear i didnt go anywhere near my friends at breaks as she stood near them for a week or so... anyway i go back and... it got worse she got her friends a few guys... a couple girls... they all started... they all called me a pedophile... constantly yelling it at me... following me... tormenting me... making fun of me... turning... my friends against me... it went on for months... and every other day more people were involved... it got so bad i burst into tears in front of my friends (im 6'5" and 16 years old i felt like an idiot) however doing that made it stop for a few days... the girl promised me she would stop as well at that point... either way it made me paranoid of who i was with as i am tall it makes anybody who is short that hangs around me look younger and i don't want it to happen again... as it is i was scared to go out with 3 girls who were a year younger than me and shorter than me because i didn't want the torment... even if she was joking... it's scarred me for life in that sense TL/DR; People fucked with my mind a lot and tormented me for a long time. Now i'm left with lots of fear that everyone i talk to secretly hates me for what i do... and i know my real friends will tell me im being crazy but it's scared i can't take this paranoia that i annoy everyone and they don't want to be around me/talk to me... |
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The Sorceress. Boing~ Level: 235
Posts: 13144/20774 EXP: 200650927 Next: 1274965 Since: 01-01-12 From: UK Last post: 834 days Last view: 5 hours |
I wouldn't put that down to paranoia to be honest. It sounds more like a mental scar from bad experiences; a sort of trauma, if you like.
Social situations aren't the easiest to deal with. Sometimes, it's better to keep to just hanging out with a few people you trust. A small circle of friends, family or maybe just people you know. Hanging around people like that, and you'll slowly learn how to deal with social situations. That's coming from my own experience - I used to lack social skills myself. I learnt them off others. As for second and third examples, that sounds like the usual spiting hate that some people give. Pay no attention to it, since they're just after a reaction. It's also worth ignoring people like that, since they're not worth giving time to. The fourth one though, is a case of being pure malicious. Those people are using others to further themselves. I'd say you've had bad experiences with people.. but I'll give you my advice on it. Don't trust people until you learn a bit about them, and can judge if they're worth trusting or not. You might come across as cold at first, but most people who are worth knowing will figure out why. Those that can't figure it out, are those not worth it. This doesn't work for everyone, but try sharing how you feel with others. Some people feel better having shared it with someone. The world could always use more heroes! |
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Purple Leever Level: 31
Posts: 19/213 EXP: 182723 Next: 2640 Since: 11-02-14 From: Earth Last post: 3160 days Last view: 3086 days |
Posted by CherryBunny thank you Cherry, I've wanted some un-biased advice on things like this for a while and it feels very good to finally get it  and i'll try my best to improve.
Also thank you for responding to this regardless of the fact i am new here . |
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   I may or may not be back to life. Level: 53
Posts: 321/661 EXP: 1102528 Next: 54591 Since: 10-09-12 From: 51.41277327819231 0.7888535549864173 Last post: 2399 days Last view: 2004 days |
Seeing as I'm already your friend and you asked for neutral opinions on the matter I won't say overmuch, but seeing number four, something I never remember you ever mentioning; I just want to say that if you ever need someone who is sympathetic to your problems and knows the situation you're in you can always talk to me.
Sorry if this is out of line I didn't really know how to put this. ____________________ |
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Purple Leever Level: 31
Posts: 23/213 EXP: 182723 Next: 2640 Since: 11-02-14 From: Earth Last post: 3160 days Last view: 3086 days |
Posted by SapphireBlaze oh i didnt tell you because i thought you were there when it happened. but yeah thank you for the offer |
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I may or may not be back to life. Level: 53
Posts: 325/661 EXP: 1102528 Next: 54591 Since: 10-09-12 From: 51.41277327819231 0.7888535549864173 Last post: 2399 days Last view: 2004 days |
Posted by ek_0Posted by SapphireBlaze I don't remember seeing it, but my memory is like a wine barrel that had an unfortunate accident with a gatling gun, but the offer still stands. ____________________ |
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Unspecificed Cooling Off Period. Be Safe Bisexual Empress of the Stolen Title? Level: 142
Posts: 5024/6751 EXP: 34766999 Next: 201430 Since: 07-17-13 Last post: 3200 days Last view: 3107 days |
I also am pretty fearful. I worry that everyone I know both in real life and here on the internet will hate me and bash me.
I also fear the government and the police. I've lost faith in the government and the police force months ago.  
I have a lack of self-control so I worry that one day I'll do something very terrible that everyone will hate me.  ____________________ Sunshine Realm Welcome to Aqmlm's, the only board with Al-Aq'mlmistrators! |
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Purple Leever Level: 31
Posts: 58/213 EXP: 182723 Next: 2640 Since: 11-02-14 From: Earth Last post: 3160 days Last view: 3086 days |
trust me I have the same fear about the third one it's fine *hugs* as long as it doesn't happen it's fine and if it does then you'll know who will stand by you |
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