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Level: 44 Posts: 421/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Posted by Epele Gotta do what you gotta do |
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Level: 44 Posts: 422/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
SAT scores came back. Got 1260, that's about 1760 in terms of the old SAT. Not great but at least I'm above the national average by about 200 points. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 423/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Nope, got plenty on my dresser |
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Level: 44 Posts: 424/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Merzbow pulse demon t-shirt and school sweatpants |
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Level: 44 Posts: 425/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Danika: Meteor
orsiniortiz: Not respecting women |
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Level: 44 Posts: 426/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
no idea |
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Level: 44 Posts: 427/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Decoy Blimp x Decoy Blimp = Dlimp |
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Level: 44 Posts: 428/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Sorry for the way late response, been busy lately.
Yeah but that doesn't mean it's okay.
I mean yeah that's understandable but they should question themselves when feelings interfere with facts.
When he's angry he really doesn't, which is probably where the mocking comes from..
Yeah, he's mentioned time and time again that he wants to see a therapist but again, he's incapable of saying no to others, so he and I are both fucked.
Could you elaborate on this?
No, he generally treats people with respect even when he encounters ridiculous people. He only really lashes out at me (and sometimes my stepmom, but not often).
Well frankly its better than sitting around and doing nothing.
What do you mean "trying anything?" At this point the only thing I'm "trying" to do is to think freely and stand up for myself for once.
Why is it okay for him to not acknowledge the things I'm saying because he doesn't like to talk about feelings but I'm supposed to just not say anything because he has issues? I think that's bullshit and I won't stand for it. Also, here's an update: This whole thing with me and my dad has been hanging over my head for weeks now and sometimes it keeps me up at night. For years I've daydreamed about physically assaulting him (obviously I would never do that in real life unless he tries to harm me, which I doubt he will) but now it's gotten to the point where I can't stop thinking about how fucked our relationship is. Sometimes I play out scenarios in my head where he and I get incredibly heated and then things suddenly get physical or he tries to pull me out of school because he's offended or something. I want this shit to stop so I'm considering ripping off the bandaid by writing him a thorough and well thought out email expressing ALL my concerns so that he can't interrupt me to insult me or shut me down before hearing my thoughts fully. It would make things pretty awkward for awhile, but I'm in my senior year of high school now; I'm dealing with a big workload, and soon the college process will be in full swing, so I don't need this stress hanging over my head. I may start writing the email today but I won't send it until I've slept on the idea. I don't want to make any irrational decisions, but I'm also getting really tired of this. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 429/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME THESE QUESTIONS THAT I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT
(actually tho) |
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Level: 44 Posts: 430/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
*sees that he's banned*
...oh... |
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Level: 44 Posts: 431/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
No I'm allergic to cats.
Would rather have a puppy in my lap. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 432/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
As long as the skin color change was temporary then yes. I love me some shrimp. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 433/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
I've been doing some research and I've come to the conclusion that both my parents have exhibited verbally/emotionally abusive behavior for years. I can't believe they've been making me internalize their problems for so long. I feel humiliated.
I want to take a metal baseball bat to everything in their apartment right now. They're lucky I'm 15 miles away from them with no way of getting to the apartment. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 434/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
I don't plan on it doing it, but boy do I want to, and boy do they fucking deserve it.
I would fuck up my pillow but its the middle of the night and I live in a dorm so I can't make too much noise. At the moment I'm blasting aggressive music in my headphones to try and calm myself down. I've also been pulling at my hair and clenching some rose quartz I have in my room. Forcefully scratching my arm is helping too (I'm not actually damaging my skin, but it does hurt). EDIT: My arms are burning now. Guess the scratching worked. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 435/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
I've never tried rabbit before. I've heard its good. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 436/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Sounds like Russian fetishism, but no, I don't know what that is. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 437/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Eric Whitacre Singers - Ubi Caritas
I just got into my school's advanced choir and this is one of the pieces we'll be practicing. I didn't realize how much I love choral music. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 438/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
I've never seen that combo before. I'd be interested to see it |
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Level: 44 Posts: 439/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
4 |
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Level: 44 Posts: 440/524 EXP: 598356 Next: 12929 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 302 days Last view: 24 days |
Good shit |
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