Notings of Attention™
Acmlmboard 2 Released
Github/GIT | @acmlmboard
Chatting Places
Discord

Affiliates
Super Mario Bros. X | Kuribo64
Views: 8,954,790
Main | FAQ | IRC chat | Memberlist | Active users | Latest posts | Stats | Ranks | Online users | Search
03-29-24 03:27 PM
Guest: Register | Login

Main - Posts by Decoy Blimp

Pages: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 03:42 AM, in Bad blood, and a new life Link | ID: 99149
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 41/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
I haven't been here very long, but the community here was very welcoming from the start, so at this point I feel comfortable being open about my life and what's been going on lately.

Here goes.

The past 9 months have been a nightmare. In during that time I've fallen out with people and been an asshat countless times, and I hate the person I've been. Frankly, the person I've been these past months is someone I don't like, recognize, or want to be, yet for some reason I continue to make the same mistakes time and time again.

I'll start with my online interactions. I used to be a member of the SMWCentral community, but I've been banned from there TWICE now. Why? Because I became overly attached to the board over the years (I joined in 2013) and somehow I turned into an overly dramatic flamey immature piece of shit and grew to hate the board I loved for so many years. This applies to both my bans, the first being in late October and the second being in early May. At this point an unban is out of the question. Never gonna happen.

Even after my ban I still managed to be a pest by being a cunt to people over Discord and reregging multiple times. I'm really ashamed of myself for it and I wish I could undo everything and start over, but alas, I can't.

Now for the real life stuff. Depression episodes began to kick in for me in October and they lasted until about May. It fucked up my school work and my social life, as I began to be cold towards people. That being said though, the school I've been going to for the last two years has been a terrible fit for me and I felt haunted in a way by certain people there (namely my ex girlfriend. Will touch on her more in a moment).

Academically the school is bad for me. I live in Portland Oregon, so its basically a hipster city, and the school I was going to was no different. It didn't have a letter grade system and most of the teachers weren't good at their jobs at all. What's crazy is that the actual workload was pretty small compared to most schools, yet I struggled to get things done. Partially that was my ADD getting in the way, coupled with my parents not letting me take meds for it out of fear of me developing a physical dependency.

Not only that, but the drama fucked things up even more, especially when it came to my ex. In December I was having a super shitty week and I felt as though she didn't care about me anymore so I got on her case about it. She showed no sign that she cared, so I gave her the finger and moved on... for about five months. We became friends again later on, but then something happened and all of a sudden she started treating me like shit.

Here's the kicker: I'm moving to the east coast in August. I get to press the reset button on my life, and I'm so excited! But when it came to my ex? All of a sudden she "doesn't care" that I'm moving away and will likely never see her again. Finally I got so sick of her shit that I blocked her number. I haven't spoken to her since and I don't have the slightest urge to reverse my decision.

Now, to any moderators reading this, don't worry. I don't plan on being dramatic here. I want to be a better person from here on out, and I plan on sticking to that.

There's a lot of things I haven't talked about but I'm doing all of this on my phone so I'll fill in more details later. Let me know what you think of this and if you have any tips on self improvement I'd love to hear them.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 02:52 PM, in Ask me things lol Link | ID: 99166
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 42/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
SwingBall:

1. Yes.

2. Haven't played any.

Needle: Yes

Baseball questions: Again, wouldn't know.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 03:03 PM, in Ask me things lol Link | ID: 99168
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 43/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Questions about my past and deep personal questions.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 03:23 PM, in June KCS Rankings (6/30 - Well, that was an exciting month ^_^) Link | ID: 99171
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 44/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
That would be pretty cool, actually

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 03:27 PM, in Ask me things lol Link | ID: 99174
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 45/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Tomato and Mozzarella with basil on toasted Baguette bread. But you have to buy one in Europe (I ate one in Germany) for it to be TRULY magical.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 04:02 PM, in Bad blood, and a new life Link | ID: 99181
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 46/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days

First, I think it's commendable for recognizing your flaws and wanting to improve yourself. Though I may not know all that was said or done by you or others, I do know that not everyone is willing to admit when they mess up.


You say that, but I think one of my issues is that I recognize where I screw up a little too much. Then again, you were never on the recieving end of my tantrums so there's that. Thank you though.


As for the mental health issues, that seems like a whole other game. If your life is being inhibited by attention deficit disorder and depressive episodes, you owe it to yourself to seek help, regardless of whether or not medication is involved.


The depressive episodes are long gone, and I will be taking a new form of medication when I start school again.


That said, I have to ask: have you ever spoken to a professional about any of this? Many schools offer some sort of free counseling services, and many can even refer you to a good psychiatrist (assuming that one is even nesscessary, as many mental health issues may not even require medication for treatment)


I've been regularly seeing a therapist/psychiatrist since 2014. Therapy has helped me tremendously and I would be in a much worse place now had I not taken it. Problem is that the highschool I went to for the past two years didn't have a counselor or anything. The only "counselor" was my advisor who offered to let me vent about my problems to her, but I rarely ever did that because she was busy all the time.


Finally, congrats on your move to the east coast, especially if you'll be in the New York / New Jersey area. If you are, enjoy the pizza and beaches! :)


Thanks! I'll be moving either Massachusettes or Rhode Island though.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 05:29 PM, in Bad blood, and a new life Link | ID: 99183
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 47/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days

Where does that idea come from? Do you find yourself dwelling on your mistakes instead of just recognizing them and working on them over time?


To a degree, yes, but mainly its because I always admit when I made a mistake so its only commendable the first few times. After that it just becomes annoying as hell.


True, and I wouldn't mind keeping it that way. Anger management is fun and profitable for all! :D


Indeed. Don't worry, there's like a 1% chance I'll lash out at anyone here.


at least it sounds like she cares enough to listen when possible, and it sounds like you have others to fall back on.


Yeah, that is helpful.


Hopefully it's Massachusetts. Boston is a pretty neat city.


I definitely want to visit Boston, but having lived in a big (ish) city my entire life I've grown to hate living in a city. Maybe Portland just sucks more than everyone else, I dunno.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 05:32 PM, in The <^> game Link | ID: 99184
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 48/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
^ Fuck no!
< Thinks the "Got Wood?" theme looks good
v Hates most of the themes except for the defaults.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 05:36 PM, in What are you listening to right now? Link | ID: 99185
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 49/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
deadmau5 - Suckfest9001

I'll never get enough of Joel's masterpieces.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 06:24 PM, in June KCS Rankings (6/30 - Well, that was an exciting month ^_^) (rev. 3 of 07-01-17 06:25 PM by Decoy Blimp) Link | ID: 99201
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 50/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Posted by Dani ★
Heh, now I'm amused that I'm being challenged by kids that are old enough to be my son or daughter too ^_~


I'll be 17 in November so if I'm old enough to be your son that would be kinda freaky. Getting pregnant at 16 pretty much screws up your entire life.

Also unrelated but how do you get a title?

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 06:40 PM, in June KCS Rankings (6/30 - Well, that was an exciting month ^_^) Link | ID: 99207
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 51/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
100 probably. I have 50 right now and I don't have a title yet.

Postcount++ time!!

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 06:46 PM, in Ask me things lol Link | ID: 99209
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 52/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Robbie Rage: I don't know, actually. I used inspect element on someone's layout from SMWCentral awhile to get the side image and the image was named "shirayukiisawesome." I thought the girl used for the side image was cute so I googled Shirayuki and got some other character entirely. The avatar I'm using now was the pic of said character I liked the most.

Needle: I haven't because I don't have a Wii U or Switch, but when I get either console Splatoon is one of the first games I'll check out.

Dani: Never cared about Ice Hockey, but when I was on my school's Basketball team in 3rd grade we only won one of of eight games, and that one win was a forfeit. To this day I still have a distaste for basketball, so yeah I'll go with Ice Hockey.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 06:53 PM, in Your favorite anime series Link | ID: 99211
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 54/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya is up there with the best for me. I really need to rewatch the series. For the first two episodes you think its just a quirky slice of life but then it gets DEEP.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 06:55 PM, in Banned For. Link | ID: 99212
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 55/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Banned for postcount inflation.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 07:21 PM, in Roller Coaster 1 has crashed! Link | ID: 99225
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 56/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
What sparked your love for boobies?

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 07:22 PM, in Ask Swingball Link | ID: 99226
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 57/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Are you gonna answer the above question by saying "No?"

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 07:23 PM, in Your favorite anime series Link | ID: 99230
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 58/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Posted by Swingball
Anyone ever watch "Free!"?


No but I've heard of it. I don't feel like exploring my sexuality right now though so I'll watch it some other time.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 07:27 PM, in New member introduction thread! Link | ID: 99237
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 59/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
Posted by Swingball
Transgender maybe, anyway have fun 575Yoshi


No I just like the color pink.

Decoy Blimp
Posted on 07-01-17 07:30 PM, in The <^> game (rev. 2 of 07-01-17 07:30 PM by Decoy Blimp) Link | ID: 99243
Normal User

Level: 44


Posts: 60/524
EXP: 595852
Next: 15433

Since: 06-26-17
From: Maryland

Last post: 281 days
Last view: 3 days
^ Nope. 2000
< Posts too much
v Is Needle

Edit: Ninja'd by Guess who?
Pages: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27


Main - Posts by Decoy Blimp


Acmlmboard v2.5.5 (10/04/2020)
© 2005-2024 Acmlm, Emuz, et al.

Page rendered in 0.223 seconds. (853KB of memory used)
MySQL - queries: 198, rows: 509/539, time: 0.195 seconds.