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Level: 44 Posts: 341/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
No clue |
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Level: 44 Posts: 342/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Okay, so I thought I might as well give an update here as I've had another romantic mishap that's resulted in things being really sour.
So since my last post in this thread, I've gained a lot of confidence in myself; I've worked through a lot of my personal turmoil, gained a lot of friends, and in general I just feel much more comfortable being myself. Something unexpected happened that was a big mistake on my part and kind of fucked up a few things, though I haven't undone any of the progress I've made to better myself, which is good. It all started about two weeks ago. I had just given a speech in front of my entire school (which isn't as daunting as it might sound since the school is rather small, albeit it still wasn't easy) talking about my experience moving across the country, dealing with depression and thoughts of suicide and how thankful I am to the school community for helping me through it, all the while cracking a ton of great jokes that kept people entertained but not distracted from the topics at hand. People loved it and I got a standing ovation, it was probably one of the most badass things I've ever done. That was kind of a turning point in terms of me being confident in myself and it really started to show when a girl I didn't know super well essentially confessed her feelings for me a few days later. I initially told her no because I had heard from a lot of people that she's very insecure and shuts people out when they try to compliment her, but my thought process at the time was "Well hey, maybe it'll be better this time. I'll never know until I try." So I just kinda dived into being a thing with this person not really thinking about it. It only lasted about four days since it didn't take me long to realize that it wasn't gonna work out. She's much worse than I had initially thought she was in terms of insecurities and such and I felt it best to air to the side of caution and end the romantic aspect. I feel bad for hurting her feelings, but I'm not beating myself up over it because I knew going in that there would probably be a few road bumps and that I would inevitably make mistakes. We started talking a bit less since it was a bit awkward and I became busy looking for a summer job and volunteer work since school had gotten out for me by then. I texted her just this evening to say hi and the conversation got dark quickly. Me: Heya Her: Well hello my favorite person Me: That's quite the title Her: Yeah I was being sarcastic because you broke my heart Her: Ha Her: Fuck Her: Dude its just a joke And from there it only got worse as you could probably imagine. So from what I can surmise from this situation, I need to not enter relationships without thinking or with people who are insecure because then this shit happens. I genuinely feel bad because I know I goofed up and nothing I try to tell her to try and get her to feel better helps because she just keeps shutting me down, but at the same time I'm just tired of trying. She just will not listen and its not my responsibility to try and help her. I'm probably more zen about this situation than I should be but I'm not really all that worried about this. Is that bad? |
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Level: 44 Posts: 343/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
The other night I had a dream that I was having a panic attack and I stole a shotgun from a dorm parent to protect myself for... some reason. I later realized I had made a horrible mistake and that I risked getting kicked out. I was in English class later except we were in the performing arts building making visual art for some unknown reason. The gun was leaning against the wall near the stairwell, and when the dorm parent walks past me and sees the gun he looks confused but keeps walking. I later decided to admit to the dorm parent that I had stole the gun, so I run downstairs, down the hall, and into the workshop in the back which is where the dorm parent was for some reason, and I just exclaimed "I STOLE THE GUN OKAY?!" He started getting really angry and I was exasperated and trying to explain that I was having a panic attack but at one point or another I woke up.
The funniest part is that the dorm parent in my dream is actually my history teacher and the former dean of students. Last night I had a REALLY weird dream. There were so many details that I don't feel like writing down, but the dream was essentially me going through two high school graduation ceremonies in succession, but minus the rewarding of the diplomas. The first time it took place in my school's chapel in the balcony where the freshman sit and while the guest speaker was being boring af I was looking at the view out the window that doesn't exist in real life, which is really all that happened during that part of the dream. The second time was on the stage at my old school where I graduated 8th grade. All I remember from that part was having my named called, simply walking from one side of the stage to the other as people applauded and being handed a cigarette by a graduate from my current school halfway through the walk. At the end I remember thinking to myself that senior year went by extremely fast, then I woke up and realized "Shit senior year hasn't even started yet." Yeah my dreams are weird. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 344/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Danika: Perhaps
Epele: Polar Bears |
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Level: 44 Posts: 345/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Haven't watched either |
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Level: 44 Posts: 346/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Heh, exams at my school have been over for almost a week
Also, my one year anniversary on Kafuka is coming up |
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Level: 44 Posts: 347/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Cardi B I guess |
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Level: 44 Posts: 349/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Posted by Moonlight Capital That doesn't sound manipulative at all |
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Level: 44 Posts: 350/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Above user loves Cardi |
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Level: 44 Posts: 351/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Robbie Rage: No idea, most store pudding is hella gross to me
Danika: None of those sound like cities I would enjoy. I'll stay near Boston thank you |
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Level: 44 Posts: 352/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
So Danika if you're from Albany New York, confirm something for me: Is "Steamed Hams" a regional dialect in that area? |
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Level: 44 Posts: 353/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
*Aurora Borealis Intensifies* |
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Level: 44 Posts: 354/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
On a scale of 1 to 10 how would you rate Ouran High School Host Club? |
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Level: 44 Posts: 355/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
I don't listen to much country so I can't speak for the second one, but it's most likely the first one. That's the reason I stay away from most country, as well as other genres that largely sound the same (Trance, Hardstyle, etc) |
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Level: 44 Posts: 356/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Waifu? |
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Level: 44 Posts: 357/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Don't know either |
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Level: 44 Posts: 358/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Bees? |
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Level: 44 Posts: 359/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Atomic Astro:
deadmau5 - while(1<2) Review (Discovered him through this video) Macintosh Plus - Floral Shoppe Review Cringing with Whiteboy LET'S AGREE: Music is Nice! Danika: Weed. |
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Level: 44 Posts: 360/524 EXP: 595773 Next: 15512 Since: 06-26-17 From: Maryland Last post: 280 days Last view: 2 days |
Melatonin |
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