last dream was... full of emotions to say the least

was in some weird, entirely new place, but I met grandma there for Christmas and she was really happy to be with me. I think subcon is trying to tell me something there.

she also used the right pronouns for me and I felt honored.

this part alone was so emotionally charged that I actually cried, apparently.

anyway, there were also... videogames.

some weird, entirely new SM64DS minigames. the rules aren't quite obvious so my sister explains it to me. you drop balls into some game machine thing, but first you can choose how many balls to drop, and it's really weird... I even recall I didn't quite understand what the point was after a first try.

something involving lockpicking tools but I don't really remember what.

a house that was a bit like dad-side grandparents' house, with a similar bathroom, albeit wider and with large tables and shit for baby care. at the same time something involved Lauri and Anni from HPC, but it's weird.

then, the last part of the dream was around a Christmas-themed Mario level in a SMG-like game. anyway, at some point I was in what was apparently Santa's bedroom, but with real fucked gravity and a bed like 2m up... I eventually get on the bed, and then there's a ladder to the ceiling, so I climb... which is where I end up atop a Christmas train, of all things. the train looks toy-y and is travelling through a snowy landscape at night, but who knows where it's going? there's a steam engine chimney next to me that is singing Jingle Bells in choo-choo noises, but it eventually becomes more like a cartoony mechanical dragon head that shoots a bit of flames as it sings, etc...

real weird.

now I'm in a Christmas-y mood.

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Posted by StapleButter

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later. night. running away from something, not clear what. anyway, I run through doors or windows of some kind.

eventually, run into some apartment. it's completely dark, can't see shit. opening a door... at this point it's completely dark and silent, like a void. can't get any sense of what's around me.

then I feel that I'm being tossed headfirst into a void. as if I was being defenestrated, but still no sight of anything.

which is where I wake up.

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second nightmare of that kind, I guess.


anyway, first dream

it's really weird and fucked up. seems to revolve a lot around sleeping/waking up in various bedrooms, including a scene in my childhood bedroom in the shithole, with the clock displaying some nonsense/glitched time.

another scene in my current home. playing around with some weird lock mechanism. several metal pieces (from said lock mechanism?) stuck in the wall. weird inner sense that something is wrong.

later, out in the streets, with my blanket around myself for some reason. it's night. going down some street, but it gets darker and darker... up until I can't see anymore. which is where it degenerates into nightmare shit. I can feel something hostile (zombie mob?) surrounding me, weird growl/crock sound coming from back right, I can feel the fear... and I wake up.

I continue sleeping with lights on as I need to get that shit out of my mind.

don't remember the second dream, but it was hardly nightmare-y.

third dream took place in teh shithole, but it was weird. helping parents on some house work, notably in the bathroom, some weird plumbing. then, in the courtyard, getting some weird ad on my phone (think it was about some restaurant offering dinosaur meat of all things) and joking about it, mom/sister joking back and calling me a dinosaur (deadnaming me in the process but I didn't care)

oh well.

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oh hey look who's just got a new layout


using a modified version of some old chocolate background I found in my old files, because I am oh so original

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it's supposed to be chocolate


the original was some chocolate image found on FilterForge, I darkened it so it doesn't piss in your eyes by being too bright for Acmlmboards


also, changing the border colors from #9a6730 to #c1613e. looks better this way imo.

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lazy wakeup = you only remember the last dream

and it was really wacky


like


parents' house, 1F. waking up, or someshit.

going to the corridor window, looking down in the court. there's a tiger there.

at the end of the corridor, on the floor, some kind of big butterfly, that my sister modified to carry some kind of miniature ad banner. but that thing is so heavy for it that it can't fly or move anymore. I grab it and chuck it out in the court. it seems to land into a flooded part of the court. at the same time, seems mom is coming back home, parking the car, etc... not at all worried by the tiger.

I come back to my room, to the computer. it has my IRC client running, but it's weird. it's like there are two windows. something else wants to open, but takes ages to load and just makes the whole thing unusable inbetween, with some spinner animation (like a bad hipsterweb site-- I even think of complaining about this once it's done). eventually a window opens, don't remember what it's for, but it's real weird.

later on I start typing shit, but the keyboard is annoying to type on. 'blarg' comes out as 'relarge' or something as a result of extremely bad typing.

I think the internet goes down? I overhear parents discussing that, and how internet is down at grandma's home (she doesn't have any internet access).

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simply put: a large, stinky pile of shit

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have ya been in a squat?

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